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Friday, October 26, 2007

Know thyself

one of the reasons I can think of why consciousness has alluded most research scientists (psychologists, neuroscientists and philosophers alike) and so insistently defy clear and simple definition and explanation is the fact that we have made wrong assumptions about our consciousness, and that has led us to look in the wrong direction.

I hate to do this, but very often trying to operationally define consciousness in the scientific sense almost always lead us back to the many fundamental philosophical questions: what is thought specifically in the physical sense? Less relevant, but even more extreme: je pense donc je suis? do I even really exist? Does the thoughts I have really belong to me? I shall go with the flow instead of defying it. Again, the question, what is thought. Saying it's just a bunch of conscious brain processes does not explain anything but just beg the question again.

You, whatever idea you have of yourself, no matter how alive you feel, are nevertheless a conglomerate of lifeless bunch of stuffs (which I believe we all agree, as far as our perception brings us). Senses are perception from stimulus. Ideas are perception without stimulus. Or rather, stimulus from the memory, and also the current thoughts/ideas that lead to it. Connections, we may call such things. They can be reliably replicated both in physical way and in an abstract sense. I can make a machine, or a computer program that does this. What then, distinguish them from us?

Perhaps it's high time we give up the seemingly undeniable idea that we are in CONTROL of our consciousness, of our thought processes, of our volition. Research evidence increasingly points to the conclusion that much of what one does is not entirely controlled by the person; yet, we are often led to think and feel and experience that our behavior is determined by ourself, by our volition. Well. Can you assume that volition belongs to you? Can it not be your behavior is determined by other things and you are made to feel that you are in control? That other thing, whatever it is, may very well be the thing that controls your thoughts. A projection of whatever you have in mind on your mind, and your mind attributes itself to the creation of such thoughts, and even this attribution is made by that projection of that thing. I shall call such a thing a mind runner. No matter what do I label it as, we have not come to a definite conclusion of what and how the mind and the consciousness works. This remains my speculation and I do not see it any time soon being proved to be the case.

Like-wise, if we generalize this idea to the whole world, can we say that the world is a virtual world, a fake world, a non-existing world in the physical sense, much like how we think of worlds in computer games? This analogy I give is a recurring idea in many literature, to the point of it becoming jaded. But we still have not have an answer. Will we ever do?

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Not 4 t3h f8ful

"So this thing that purports to bring good and all must create a set A by itself within the universal set, setting shackling rules and constricting boundaries. that, as long as A does not equal to the universal set, continues to bring enmity (not by themselves, but by their own definitions) between the A and A', because by its very definition A and A' are opposites. To make it worse, there's not just A. There's also B, and then there's also C..."

"It's like a remote control. The one who had it no longer exists, and now and then, every one wants to have it. All the others, either they like the channel currently viewed by the one who has it, or they dislike it. To make it worse, there's 2000+ channels and they are growing."

"Trying to convince everyone that nobody can know or reason with absolute certainty if the big guy does exist is just as hard as NP complete problems, if not harder. To make it worse, they find the same feeling of you. I give up and move on and so should you."

"Matter constituents right down to the subatomic level invariably reorganize themselves from chaotic to uniform, no matter what the initial state is. This reverberates throughout the hierarchy, and there is no reason why a form, an object, a matter that perpetuates themselves through space and time should not have an organized form, and this includes the ill defined life forms. For a thing to be chaotic is to lose its original state and jump to another state with no apparent order, thus its identity shall not survive. This is a very basic principle and no one has to be responsible for that. Apologies for invoking the anthropic principle, but had this not hold true for a universe with a certain properties like that of ours, no one observer shall exist to ruminate on that, for no matter of certain narrow properties (that which we call the Goldilocks's zone) can create enough complexity to sustain it. We have no reason to ascribe such ordinary yet incredibly grand existence and the interactions therein to an entity whose origins can not be comprehended, for nothing can be determined with certitude should we decide to wend on this path. Everyone can say whatever they want, hence the existence of sets A,B,C... as explicated above. And therefore by Occam's Razor, it shall be discarded."

"The invocation of the Anthropic Principle requires no watchmaker if there is a watch. For time and space arises out of complex interactions of geometry and dimensions at incomprehensibly grand scale. At such scale, a multitude of events not comprehensible in the usual space-time sense are happening, and one of them leads to our universe, and irrevocably to our existence. Is there a control? No there is not. Our enormous desire to simplify such chaotic scene into one of patterns and forms has nevertheless deviates us from the correct reasoning, if we are never able to and decide to push all such incomprehensible matters to a single entity whom we form in the image of us, yet whose capability is extended to such infinite scale as to justify its ability to handle the matters of which responsibility we gladly give to."

Thursday, October 04, 2007

小松鼠

小松鼠 小松鼠
蹦蹦跳跳 找食物
见大鸟 快点跑
可惜 被抓了


小松鼠 小松鼠
被大鹰 抓回去煮
吃心脏 丢大肠
吃得乐心房

小松鼠 小松鼠
你的头骨 在何处
找到骨 却掉眼珠
在沟渠上浮
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